I'm happy to announce I'm an Aunt again! That makes 12 nieces and nephews in all. I'm beyond happy for my brother and sister-in-law as they embark on parenthood again for the 3rd time. They deserve this happiness.

It's still bittersweet of course. Seems like everyone and their grandmother is pregnant these days. Lots of our friends are having their thirds and we seem to be only backtracking. But that's just how it goes. I have my amazing miracle son who is almost 5 and my frozen embryos who I think about often. Feels like a good insurance policy but where would they go to grow is the question?

Ironically, I woke at 5am this morning in excruciating pain. I knew my "period" was coming from my ta-ta tenderness and I woke up with horrible cramps. The little lining that does grow wants to escape my uterus but can't get out because of all the scar tissue. It's very painful but doesn't happen every month so it's tolerable at this point.

When I told my son he had a new baby cousin coming, his first reaction was "oh sh#t!". My mom and I dropped our chins when he said this...and we wanted to laugh as well. I guess I need to watch my language more closely. When I asked him why he said that he said, "I have 100,000 cousins and I only wanted 1000." I know he wanted to be a big brother very badly and it's hard, even for a 4 or 5 year old, to see everyone else become one and not him. But life isn't fair and that's the best lesson to be taught. I guess...